No one can foresee our future, right? So do I. There are a lot
of questions that I may ask. But to whom? God? Perhaps. I’m not sure though. I’m
gonna tell what I concerned about. You know, guys I think I’m not belongs to
English Major. Although, at the first time I felt so blessed because I can be
part of UGM. University of Gadjah Mada, one of the best univ in this country.
My parents also agreed about it. That’s why they want me so bad to study in
UGM. I know I know, it’s not a bad one, but this is must. I’m going to mad at
that time. I was thinking if I’m not gonna make it, I mean be part of UGM.
What happens to me next? Sometimes, I
felt that my parents always push me over. Okey, Im not like my sisters. Maybe
they more clever than me. So what? we’re different right? Okey, forget it, let’s
go back to the topic.
I never
imagined that I will be studied in English major. Yeah, this is one of my
favorite course when I was in high school but I mean I don’t wanna learn
further more about English. I have another “dream” about where place that I
work in. Be honest guys. First things that come up in your mind about English
is teacher. Is it true? That’s so boring, right? I have been studying English in
Vocational College for a year. At the first time, I’m a bit nervous especially
when speaking. This is the worst among the others. I’m not used to speak too
much in high school. Furthermore, I have to do a mini drama in class.
Ahh I hate
it. I feel weird standing in front of a lot of people although that’s my
friend. Let me tell you a secret. Maybe this is not good but I have to tell ya.
I felt that in my class there are some people who hated me. When I’m do a
presentation, they tried to put me down. I don’t why but I could see it in
theirs eyes, they way they see me. Not only me who felt it. I tried to ignore
it as my friend’s advice. It worked, but those things also made me wanna try
SBMPTN again. This is such a dilemma. I feel English is not belongs to me, but
in other side, I started comfort with the friends *except the people who I’ve
told you before*. However, I have to decide. I decided to try again. I don’t
have any preparation for it, only depends on past memories that still left. I
still waiting for the announcement. 28 June and 1 July will be the day. Whether
I passed the test or not? I hope I will. If I’m not, I will go back to my Major
right now.